I hate missing you….

I hate missing you….

I have struggled to get you out of my life,

I have worked so hard not to communicate with you,

I have done my best to be disgusted by you,

A month later I want to be with you, why?

Yes I moved on, just for a while

I haven’t found a person that I can call at 02h00am,

I haven’t found the person I can call just to cry,

I haven’t found the person I can be with and be confident that they love me,

I haven’t found that very one person that understands me,

Someone that will understand me the way you do,

Now I sit here thinking of you again,

I’ve been through this before, I know I have,

I know you not good for me, I know I deserve better,

But then why am I thinking of you,

Why am I picking up the phone to call you…

Why is it that when someone hurts me, I think of you,

I think that maybe you wouldn’t be doing this to me…

Yet again I’m saying it, I hate missing you,

Yet at the same time I’m afraid of being alone,

I don’t want to be hurt, not by you, not by anyone….

Will I ever get over you?

I wonder if I really should,

It is so painful, thinking that I have to let go…

I hate missing you my love…!